. . . because I know I still have it!
Just when I think
patience and self-control may be resident qualities of my character – life’s
little adventures remind me though my fuse is a bit longer, it’s still
combustible. Most recently, on another beautiful spring morning,
facing no pressure except to get on with my day, a glitch got me – and I got
mad.
My computer kept locking up; several times the tiny
psychedelic ball whirled interminably, refusing to let me do what needed doing.
After what seemed like the fiftieth time, I called the store to make an
appointment. Apple’s automated answering machine boasted it could
understand sentences – so, feel free to be specific about my problems. I then was directed to schedule the
appointment on their website.
“He-e-l-l—l-o I can’t get to
your website; my computer is malfunctioning!”
Why get so angry
at an inanimate object? It’s not
like a computer cares that I am going nuts. And yes, I yelled this into the phone, even as I knew Doug
and his computer were nearby. He calmly scheduled an appointment later in the
afternoon.
Then, I got on with my morning, and arrived at the Dallas
Pregnancy Resource Center to be a Christian
volunteer. There I found the receptionist on her knees, fiddling with the
office computer. This larger and older inanimate object had also frozen up, and
her considerable translation work was held hostage, threatened with erasure if
she had to crash the computer – she was praying aloud while pushing buttons.
Frustrated? Yes.
Fuming? No.
And when the screen came back on, so did her work – and she
praised the Lord, who is always good.
Was there an object lesson here?
Later at the repair place, when
the technician ran a diagnostic
test or two, she stated the hard drive was OK, and suggested reloading the
operating system. Given my
outburst –yelling at a computer – and the object lesson, maybe, I needed
my operating system reloaded? (
Psalm
139:23-24)
Anger is a risky emotional component in my character. After all, as some wise soul
observed: Anger
is one letter short of danger.
What’s dangerous to me
threatens others, too.
Will Rogers observed, “People who fly into a rage always make a
bad landing.” Giving into
anger can harm more people than me, just as planes that make bad landings can
hurt more folks than the pilot. (I Pushed Jesus!)
In my time, I have banged pans, smashed glass, slammed doors
and banged cabinet doors shut – and I have yelled, removing all doubt I lost my
charm – and some brain cells!
It seems
indulging frustration is like losing my mind – literally! The Roman poet Horace
warned, “Anger is short-lived madness.” Now science has quantified that an angry outburst destroys
brain cells – definitely a
diminishing asset at my age! Therefore,
this adage bears repeating:
Before you give someone a piece of your mind, make
sure you can get by with what is left.
~ Author Unknown
Apple’s computer-generated voice remained unresponsive to my
angry outburst: I can’t access your website!
I wonder what God’s response might have been, if, like my
friend, I had prayed instead of fumed? I know Doug ’s morning would have been more
serene.
She
that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and she that ruleth her
spirit than she that taketh a city.
(Proverbs: 16:32) – Or, in plainer language: It is better to be patient than powerful; it
is better to have self-control than to conquer a city. (The New
Living Translation)